Day 3 - Break the Rules? Please? (11:12 am)

I'm suffering from an upset stomach now.
I highly doubt this is due to my current lack of vyvanse.. but it isn't helping.
I feel so sick and it seems like I have low blood sugar.
I've noticed I have about a 3 hour window of awakeness before I have to sleep.
I WILL DIE AT WORK TOMORROW.
Oh God, I pray that I can get a pill from Syd.
It feels like I'm tormenting myself whenever I'm awake.
I have to go to sleep now, I cannot stay awake any longer.
7-11 is the most I can do..
Please let me break the rules.. I just want to go back to how I was.. at least I could do things before. Now I just fall asleep and hate my existence.

This song I herd on my iPod on the car ride home gave me some comfort though.
It's a demo from Nightwish's single "Amaranth". Before they had their (now ex) singer, Marco sings this.
Here's the lyrics.

Baptized with a perfect nameThe doubting one by heartAlone without himself
War between him and the dayNeed someone to blameIn the end, little he can do aloneYou believe but what you seeYou receive but what you give
Reach for the hand held heart through lifeFor the dancer to arriveReach and catch me before I fall
Apart from the wandering packIn this brief flight of timeWe reach for the ones whoever dareYou believe but what you seeYou receive but what you give
Reach for the hand held heart through lifeFor the dancer to arriveReach and catch me before I fallReach for a friend whoever caresFor someone whoever dares
Reach to catch me when I fall
Reaching for the doubting one by heartHearing voices callingCatch the one who's falling
Reach for the hand held heart through lifeFor the dancer to arriveReach and catch me before I fallReach for a friend whoever caresFor someone whoever daresReach to catch me when I fall



Reach for a friend whoever cares


     For someone whoever dares

          Reach to catch me when I fall

                    Because I will fall. Because I am falling. Because I'm crashing hard. <3