Day: 0
Vyvanse: 100mg
I'm sorry to a lot of people.
- Around 7 months or so ago, I began taking vyvanse.
- It's an amazing drug that lets me get work done.
- After a few weeks of taking it I had a lot of work that I needed to do that day.
- I took two.
- Ever since then I've been abusing my medication, buying more from other people, and destroying my life.
- It wasn't that bad at first but then I got to the point that started around a week or two ago.
- My tolerance had gotten to the point where I would need/take anywhere from 5-8 pills a day.
- At 50mg (my current dosage) That is 250 - 400mg a day.
- You shouldn't be prescribed more than 70mg ever.
- I found that drinking would help me avoid the withdrawal effects of extreme exhaustion and I took that up for a while until I needed to be able to go to work.
- Then I began snorting ground up caffeine pills.
- It really wasn't that bad except the drip.
- Very bitter.
- Then yesterday came.
- I had done a lot of digging around on the internet and learned of a new way to get high that I had never tried.
- Robitussin.
- For some smart reason I thought I would have a high tolerance to it so I not only drank the whole bottle before work, I also took 20 of the liquid gel capsules.
- An absolutely terrible idea.
- Mix being shit-faced with a very bad trip and that's what I got.
- I went to sleep around 11:30pm last night and didn't wake up until 2:03pm today only from my manager calling me.
- I had work at 2 and overslept.
I just need to get back to controlling my life.
I feel bad because I will continue to have this extreme lack of motivation and exhaustion until my body can adjust.
I won't be able to see my friends at night or stay out late until I can get this fixed.
I'm sorry guys, I gotta take some time to stabilize my life.
Rules.
- Syd has my 25 pills left from this prescription.
- She needs them until her's is filled, then she'll have about 5-10.
- She will hold on to them and if I feel I can handle it I will get one from her each day.
- I cannot have one if it is past 5pm no matter what, sleep is most important.
- I cannot have more than one no matter what, one pill should always be enough.
- If I feel under control when my next prescription comes out then I will put 2-5 vyvanse in a bottle and keep that, Syd will refill it when I run out.
- Sleep is absolutely important, that's why I cannot stay out late for now.
- I need to eat right in hopes that it will give me energy that I need.
This journal is one way for me to track my progress and help motivate me.
I really need all the help I get because once tomorrow starts I don't know what will happen..
~Wish Me Luck~
-Prysm
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